The New Version Of Me

“I am old, Gandalf. I don't look it, but I am beginning to feel it in my heart of hearts. Well-preserved indeed! Why, I feel all thin, sort of stretched, if you know what I mean: like butter that has been scraped over too much bread. That can't be right. I need a change, or something.” -Bilbo Baggins

Losing weight is hard.

The toughest part about that statement is that I already did it once.




Me at my heaviest :(

  

I hit a maximum of 218 lbs. before I realized that I had a huge problem with my weight and I had to do something to change it. So I did. With the motivation from my friends, the people at the gym,  and my co-workers, (mostly catty motivation from the co-workers, like temptation with homemade chocolate cake that my competition would bring but refuse to eat) I dropped down to 148 lbs, my lowest weight EVER.



Me at my lightest! :)



Then I got tired. Tired of eating the right things. Tired of working out. Relationships happened and failed and I got depressed. So the weight piled back on...

Can you imagine the disappointment I felt after stepping back on the scale and realizing that I've put on over 50 lbs of FAT in the last two years?? I don't know if I've developed issues from gaining the weight  back so fast, but there are a few things that I've used as reasons/excuses not to work out for over a year. And I would eat whatever I wanted, as much as I wanted.

I used ignore whatever pain or ailment I developed when I had a goal before. At 30 years old it's time to stop making excuses and make the changes that I need to...no...WILL continue for the rest of my life. No more negativity. I will do this for me.

This is the beginning of my journey. To fitness. To transformation (inside and out). To sanity. To lucidy. And it starts today.